"I can't sleep until you're next to me." Is such a sweet statement.
But how about "I can't sleep when you're next to me?"
Why can't you sleep?
Sharing a bed is an intimate situation like holding hands. Perhaps these intimate situations mostly happen when one feel her/his companion closely and vice verse, but can the bed be a place of disaster? (and I don't mean S&M mishap)
Wicked often found it hard to share Chrisyero's bed. She had been questioning if she is an intimacy material or if there may be underlining problems with her relationship; As someone who was very used to being by herself, she enjoy taking her time within her space, she once said to a sort-of friend, "I don't share, I don't care, get out of my face!" And she was referring to her dinner, let alone the bed.
On a different note, people can describe Wicked as the type that is borderline sleep-walking. She spread out and roll around like a roll of toilet paper, in plenty of occasions she had "ran over" Chrisyero; and often she found herself waking up in an upside-down position (don't ask, won't tell!), that's why when the bitches stayed in the wine country 2 years ago, she asked to have her own room, playing with her vibrator was the side benefit - she knew her sleeping habit can scare the shit out of the bitches.
Her unique bed activity made sharing a bed a self conscious experience at Chrisyero's, which was the first time for a very long time she felt self conscious. Having to feel this way make her even more uncomfortable because she started to question if she has been over-changing herself and lost the attitude that made her successful as a person, which become the main challenge in the relationship (previous episode). She could not help to wonder, if she is comfortable holding hands, why the bed is such a key personality change that she would feel bad for herself?
"Snap out of it!" RoAriel told Wicked. "You are at least lucky to have your man sharing a bed with you! Mine's in a different country." which told Wicked how much RoAriel misses Chaddy, her busy work schedule is not enough to mask such feeling - RoAriel knows in a way Wicked may felt bored for stopping sexual conquests, and looking for a reason to rage war for her own self-doubt, but it is no Chrisyero's fault, and it was her decision to enter this relationship. "In a way you should still let him know that you're not comfortable with sharing bed. You may be able to work something out..."
A week ago Wicked moved into her new apartment, she got herself a perfect hard bed and high solid pillow that suits her body perfectly and she was sound asleep; she invited Chrisyero over for the very first time and he stayed, it was the most comfortable experience: no tension, no discomfort, no waking up the middle of the night. She was smiling the next morning...
And Chrisyero was sore everywhere... Turns out the two of them just physically requires different things at sleep, it was a physical thing with the bed not a mental self-conscious thing afterall.
"You stupid overthinking bitch, you didn't change your personality, you just needed to change your bed." RoAriel said to Wicked...
Whoops...
